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Turns out I was a little less ready than I thought. Going to hit the gym today through Thursday and have my real initial weigh-in Saturday. I'm down but not out...I'll be back in a few days.
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Hi again guys. Two posts in a 24-hour period, whaaaat? It's insane, I know.

First, I wanted to talk about my brother for a second. He called me a few days ago and told me he wanted to start getting healthy. Now, he has told me this before, but he never really committed to it. Now he has a purpose - he wants to go to a pro-wrestling school in Atlanta. I didn't even know something like this existed until he told me about it and I don't know how I really feel about it in general, but anyway, he wants to go. So he seems pretty motivated to get in shape. He ordered this workout program that he's really eager to try. He asked me for help compiling a grocery list and for advice on things to eat, stay away from, etc. and I've been trying to help as best I can. I want him to know he doesn't have to completely deprive himself to get healthy. So I'll probably be updating with news about him from time to time.

So tomorrow is 04/19: the day Josh and I got engaged last year, and the day INO will be my new motto from how until I see that shiny 120 on the scale. I'm going to politely ask the receptionists at my WW meeting to start my stats over again so I can have a fresh start. I've done it before, so I hope they're cool with that. It really helps me mentally.

Here's my Bible for the next five months:

Weight-Loss Progress
Workout Schedule

I have a Groupon to Thornton Park Yoga that I have eight more sessions on, so those are my Wednesday workouts for the next eight weeks. I've been going with my friend Kinsey and we like it. The studio is very small so it can get cramped, but the instructor is really nice and I always leave feeling refreshed (at least mentally), so I'm happy I bought the Groupon. Mental workouts are just as important as, if not more important than, physical ones. For me, at least, but I think that's probably a pretty universal opinion. Or fact. IDK. Science.

I had pizza for dinner last night and this Mediterranean deliciousness from somewhere local for lunch today. Not good, and I know I shouldn't be eating badly just because I haven't ~started~ yet. I hope I can really see this journey in an optimistic light, and more "You're going to look and feel great!" than "God, you're awful, you need to change ASAP!" Hm...maybe I should do yoga twice a week, hah.

Tomorrow we're going to Josh's and my favorite place for dinner, Ceviche. I already planned my meal. Some of the PointsPlus (PP) are a guess, but some aren't. If any of my fellow WW people want to help correct my estimates, feel free! Here's the menu; here's what I chose (for myself - I ain't sharin'):

1 glass red sangria (8 oz.; those glasses are fairly big): 5 PP
Gambas (cocktail shrimp) y guacamole: 4 PP
Cangrejos de la Casa (crab cake), no sauce: 4 PP
Haricot verdes (green beans): 2 PP

Drinks after, when we go out: 8 PP


My plan is to leave 11 Daily PointsPlus (DPP) left for dinner. This would have me using 12 Weekly Activity PointsPlus (WAPP), leaving me 37 for the week, and I will earn them back through my exercise plan this week. The biggest challenges at Ceviche will be resisting more sangria and staying away from the appetizer bread with the oil/pesto, so I'm going to have a filling snack before we go to at least hopefully have success with combating the latter. And I will sip slowly from my glass of sangria and ask for a nice tall water.

Tonight is dinner a this place in College Park called K Restaurant for a friend's birthday. Really not sure what to get but regardless, this is the last supper, so I can't promise it'll be anything super healthy. But I can promise I will be posting Sunday (since I'll be busy tomorrow) with my starting weight and measurements, as well as my food log for Saturday and a summary of how the day went.

Here goes nothing. And everything. And I know you're probably sick of this song, but I don't care because it's my motto for this year and Elsa is the newest addition to my favorite Disney Princesses (well, queen, really. ♥) next to Belle and Tiana. I may be dressing as her for an upcoming race, which is a discussion for another post. :o)

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So let's talk numbers.

26.2: The number of miles I walked/ran at the Walt Disney World Marathon in January, a goal I worked my ass off last year to achieve.
3: The number of months it has been between that race and this past week - the first time I've run since, save for once or twice.
4: The approximate number of weeks it took me to suck up my pride at the realization I needed to start my running journey back at the beginning of Couch to 5K and actually do it (tonight, I will be on W1D3).
29: The age I turned last month.
10: The number of years it's been since I started Weight Watchers for the first time. This month actually, I think.
6: The size of the wedding dress I bought that currently zips halfway up.
2006: The last time I saw something resembling the number I saw today on the scale:

19: The date in April I'm going to start taking "It's Not an Option" (INO) seriously up until my wedding day and beyond to be the healthiest version of myself - the person I know I am inside.
1: The number of years it will have been, to the day, that I got engaged when I start this journey this Saturday.
20: The number of weeks I hope to take to reach my goal weight and be able to zip up my wedding dress and say with confidence, "I did this shit."

To say I'm scared is an understatement. But the thing is, I usually let my fear propel me, not stymie me. I've skydived, traveled to the other side of the world, and left a great man to follow my heart and never look back. I've been the first person on either side of my family to graduate from a four-year university, and have never taken no for an answer. I turned getting laid off a year ago into an opportunity to start a freelance career I'd been holding off on, and I wouldn't trade the (albeit arguably small amount of) success I've found with that for anything.

So why in the world have I let fear rule me when it comes to my health and fitness? Why have I let myself gain 25 lbs. since Josh and I got together three years ago?

I think to myself what I'd tell a friend, and it'd be the following:

1. You're good enough.
2. You're strong enough.
3. You're beautiful.
4. You deserve to feel beautiful in your own skin.
5. Food is not the enemy.
6. Junk food will always be there.
7. It hurts because you're changing - without the hurt, there is no change.
8. Your children will look to you for inspiration one day.
9. Forgive yourself.
10. Move forward.

I know these are the things I need to tell myself, and more. I know the journey will be hard, but then again, what journey with a reward worth anything is easy?

I'm tired of going back and forth and shaming myself over and over again. I'm tired of seeing being health conscious as a chore. I'm tired of choosing sleeping in over running, and making up stupid justifications for doing so. I'm tired of looking at my running medals and telling myself I'm not an athlete anymore. I'm tired of being terrified of the impending day when my "big" jeans won't fit anymore, gazing longingly at my neglected skinny jeans, and lamenting over how I can only wear about 40% of my closet (and only 50% of that comfortably). I'm tired of choosing the easy path over the right one, and of feeling sorry for myself. It's not me, and it never has been. And it sure as hell isn't going to start now. It's time to walk the talk, and accept that this is a marathon, not a sprint. Cliché, but one I really need to listen to right now.

I'm going to be blogging here regularly along my journey, and I really hope you guys follow me. It's going to be a rough summer, and I will need all the support I can get.

Love you all. Thank you for continuing to believe in me.

Oct. 8th, 2013

My icon describes how I've been feeling lately about this whole weight-loss thing. I'm up to almost 145 - a number I haven't seen in a really long time - and I'm pretty upset about it. I'm getting farther from goal, and I just want to find my motivation and mojo again.

Last Day of Vacay

It's my last day in Ellijay. Honestly, I should be in bed right now, since I have to be up around 4:30 a.m. D: I have a long drive ahead of me. I'm taking Yurani to the airport on the way home, which is why we're leaving so early. It will be nice to be home when Josh gets home from work, though, so I'm not complaining.

Today was a mess, food wise, but hey - I never said I was ready to be perfect. I said I was working on it. And I really am...I just feel like my weaknesses are in social situations, on weekends, etc. During the day I'm usually really good, and when I get a work routine going again I think that will help a lot. But these are all excuses, truthfully. Tomorrow is a full day on the road. I have breakfast planned (two hard-boiled eggs, a Greek yogurt, and an apple), but snacks/lunch? Who knows. I'll probably hit up Starbucks somewhere between ATL and the Florida border, so hopefully that tides me over.

Yurani and I did go for a 5K-distance run today, which was great. It's the second one we've done since I've been here, so at least I'm getting some exercise in. I am so, SO out of shape, you guys. :[ That distance takes everything out of me - and that's INCLUDING walk breaks. I probably walked a good eight or nine minutes of the 37 it took me to complete the distance. And while walking isn't a bad thing, I used to be able to knock out a 5K distance no problem. Well...OK, that's a little bit of a lie. I never finished a 5K and thought PSH, THAT WAS EASY! But it was a different kind of difficult back when I was training diligently. I had to tell myself, "Pain is weakness leaving the body" MORE than once on that run today. It was also very hot, which is another excuse, but there you go. I'm sure in Orlando it would've been 10 times worse. I anticipate a lot of treadmill runs this summer; thank God for the Netflix iPhone app.

Completely off topic, but I've been reading/listening (during my drive up and tomorrow during my drive back down) to Game of Thrones. I watched the first season, but it's been a while so I'm reading the first book to kind of refresh it in my mind. Then I'm going to watch season 2 and read the second book, 3 and read the third book, etc. I hope I can get through them before the fourth season premieres. I want to catch up on New Girl and Community as well. I started watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer on Netflix. Have only seen the first episode and half of the second so far, but I feel like I'm really going to like it. Also, if you're not watching Bates Motel, DO IT. The first season just ended, and Josh and I loved it.

I also want to start up my Rosetta Stone French again. I paid $400 for that thing and used it last year for like two weeks. We're planning on going to France and Germany for our honeymoon, so I need to get on it. Josh is responsible for learning enough German to get us by, and I'm responsible for the French part.

I should get going so I can enjoy these last moment with my BFF before she flies away to Denver. :[ At least Benson will be in Orlando in July. Pretty certain I'm taking him to Disney World...better start prepping now.

A New Chapter.

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Hi guys.

There have been so many changes in my life over the past few months it's not even funny. Three stand out the most, so I'll outline those briefly.

The first is the greatest news: Josh asked me to marry him on April 19, and I said yes! The first photo below isn't THE moment, but we had to reenact it for the camera. :o)

More photos + the proposal story.Collapse )

It was, hands down, the best day of my life. Josh and I have been through a lot together, and I can't imagine spending my life with anyone else. I'm such a lucky lady to have this man. He's been my world for a long time, and I'm so excited to take this next step. We've already looked at one venue and are going to look at a few more over this next month, so we'll see. Our wedding date is set: 12/13/14. Which is going to be a very competitive date, so we probably need to book a venue sooner rather than later.

The next new huge thing in my life isn't as awesome, but definitely has a silver lining: I lost my job, a week before Josh and I got engaged. My company eliminated my position. It seems like a terrible thing, and in a lot of ways it is - I was making some great money, worked with some wonderful people, etc. But technical writing isn't what I want to do with my life, and I think I truly needed this push to have the guts to start pursuing something else. I also know my company kind of knew that. At any rate, I've been pursuing a few jobs and got an offer yesterday that I'll go into more detail about after I accept it, but I've mostly been taking on freelance editing jobs through And you know...I've never felt as fulfilled doing anything else for a job as I have taking on these projects. Each time my bid for a project gets accepted, I feel like I get a chance to show my stuff and make some money doing something I'm not only good at, but that I truly enjoy and is going to help an inspiring writer on their path to being published. It has been amazing. In the future, I'd really like to pursue doing that full time. My former co-worker Ray is currently helping me put together a nice online portfolio, which I think will help get me some more jobs, as well as maybe get me one step closer to a dream copywriting job ::coughDISNEYcough::. Honestly, I have a lot of possibilities and opportunities on the horizon...and while the type-A part of my personality just wants a concrete answer, the other side of me is grateful for the chance to kind of reinvent myself. So we'll see how that goes. I'm sure I'll be posting a lot about my career adventures here.

And last but not least, the topic of my weight looms. I'll just go right out and say it: I'm out of shape. My clothes aren't fitting. I'm hovering around 140 and I can't stop eating. :[ It really, really sucks. I'm using food as a comfort mechanism and allowing others and my environment to dictate what I put in my mouth, and I really hate it. This is not the Jen I like looking in the mirror at. This makes me feel like a very defeated Jen, and old, fitter Jen wants to shake current Jen into really understanding and embracing why health and fitness are so important, and why it's worth it to make sacrifices and run when I don't want to and not eat that chocolate bar, even if it's only 200 calories. I really, really miss feeling like the trade-off of feeling fit, energetic, and healthy was worth giving up junk and foregoing sleeping in...but I haven't had that feeling in a long time. I try for a few days, have a bad day, and give up completely, taking one step forward and five steps back. I'm still working out, but not nearly enough to even out the crap I'm shoveling into my mouth. I'm completely controlled by sugar...again. It's very, very hard, and I keep waiting for the day when something inside me will just SNAP again. But it hasn't happened in a really long time, and I just want to know how to get back there.

I'm hoping to be back at goal by the end of the summer, but to get there I know I need to really be committed and stop giving excuses for eating shit that no one is force-feeding me. I need to tell myself no a LOT more, forgive what I've done to my body, and move on. I'll post my weight stats on Saturdays, since that's going to be my weigh-in day. I've been "back at it" for a couple weeks now, but as you can see by looking at my Get-Fit Plan, that isn't saying much. I've been doing OK on my workouts (click here for my Workout Plan), but still not as well as I'd like. I'm in my second week of a one-month membership I bought through Groupon at this gym in Winter Park called Legacy Fitness. My friends Abby, Jen, and I joined. I have, surprisingly, been LOVING it. The classes (Body 360 and Cardio Kickboxing) I've taken have been very difficult, but something can be said about the amount of stress relieved from punching and kicking the crap out of a punching bag. I'm dead tired afterward, but it's worth it. I'm going to go three times this week.

I'm in Ellijay, Ga. right now visiting Yurani. Her brother graduated high school today, so she's in town. I drove up Thursday. It's been exactly a year since I flew to Denver to see her and Benson. Benson is so big now. He just turned two in April and is as adorable as ever, albeit a little more annoying now. :p He was almost ready to walk a year ago; today, he's running everywhere. It's crazy how quickly time flies.

I think that's enough for now. I really want to start blogging on a more normal basis and getting back into eating well and working out. The happiness and fulfillment I used to get from those things were so much more than what I get from eating a ton of bad food, and I'm determined to find my way again.

Message from the Gimp

My title refers to the fact that my shin is still royally effed up. The KT Tape is helping, but there is one area near the bottom of my right shin, on the inner part of my shin, that keeps flaring up like crazy. I was going to go to a walk-in orthopedic specialist after work today, but my co-worker told me he had the same issue a few months ago and getting new shoes solved it immediately. Soooo that's what I did. Considering my current shoes are over a year was probably about time. You're supposed to replace them every 300-400 miles so, um, oops. I'll have to keep track on Daily Mile once I start running in the new ones.

Anyway, here they are:

Brooks Adrenaline GTS 12 - in PINK! They will match my KT tape and my iPhone armband. Hooray. They should be here Tuesday, just in time for me to test them out a couple times before my Galloway Miracle Mile. I'm sad because I don't think I'll get in Kitzzy's training group. :[ Their MMs are between 8:30 and 9:30, and I think that fastest I've ever run a mile in was somewhere on the upper half of that. And my shin may make it even more difficult. Sadness. But I'm going to try. And I can always improve my time and join later, so that's good.

I'm only going to run a maximum of two miles at a time until the Galloway program starts - really can't risk the injury. Bleh. My endurance has been pretty good too. I did a 5K distance yesterday and, shin pain aside, it went really well!

In other exciting news, I lost .6 lbs. this week. Not quite on par with my 1.5-lbs.-a-week-for-the-next-six-weeks goal, but for being in a different state the majority of the week, I'll take it. Yurani and I hiked for four hours on Sunday, and ran a couple times, but damn, the air in Denver was THIN. I was so stoked to run because the weather was cool and dry and sunny and gorgeous, but as soon as I started I felt like I was struggling five times as hard to regulate my breathing. It was a pretty big downer, but I think I pushed myself a reasonable amount. I covered two miles Thursday, one Saturday, and then the 9.4-mile (round-trip) hike Sunday. I actually don't have any photos from the hike - I think she has a couple on her camera - so here's a photo of us in front of a wilderness sign with her baby, Benson.

Fun times. I miss her already. But yeah, we ate pretty well. I ended my week using all of my WAPPs and APPs, but not one over. That's a victory to me! She is doing WW too, so we helped each other. We treated ourselves to a few things - most notably, graham-cracker and strawberry-cheesecake ice cream from LIK'S, which I will visit again in my lifetime, so help me). It was ridiculously good. And I had a huge delicious sandwich from this place called Snarf's the night before I flew home. Yummm. But for the most part, it was a lot of this:

I special ordered everywhere we went. Had salads, sushi (and not fried, cream-cheese-filled kinds either), lots of eggs and yogurt, tons of fruit, etc. Very happy with what I was able to accomplish, and I'm glad I am down in weight after two weekends straight of being out of town.

Tonight I made that spaghetti-squash dish again that I told you guys about before, but I remembered to take a photo this time:

It's nothing super fancy or exciting, but it is half a spaghetti squash, 1/2 tbsp. olive oil, salt, pepper, garlic powder, onion powder, and four slices of turkey bacon. Yum! Filled me up, and for only 4 PP.

Since it's the end of the month, I'll go ahead and post my calendar:

Not as good as ~February 2011~, but about the same as ~January 2011~, so I'll take it. In the past couple of weeks, I've only gotten TWO red stickers. That's awesome to look at this way. Next month will be better. I'd love to aim for five red stickers or less. That'd be amazing.

Josh and I are going on a date to White Wolf Cafe Saturday night. We got a great deal: one appetizer to split, one entree each, one glass of beer or wine each, and one dessert to share for $39 from Originally $81 - yay!

Here's the menu. My plan is to get the ahi tuna appetizer to share and skip the sauce (Josh already agreed to get this, so yay - I know he's going to be tempted by those crab cakes, as am I). For my entree, either the catch of the day or the grouper blackened, with double vegetables for a side, and I'm going to ask them not to cook any of it in butter or oil. And I'll have a glass of white wine of some kind. I'll probably let Josh pick the dessert. I kind of hope he picks the Peanut Butter Brownie Ice Cream Pie but at the same time, I don't. Lol. That's six delicious words in one dish, and that spells trouble. We may go downtown afterward as well, so I'm allowing myself the flexibility of using the APPs I plan to earn during the week (10), plus 19 more if I need to, so I can have 30 WAPP left by the end of the week. I really, REALLY want to hold onto those 30, but I also want to enjoy myself Saturday evening. So that's the plan.

Monday, I'm going to do yoga at my co-worker Liz's house and she's making a healthy dinner. I'll have to remember to coordinate with her beforehand to make sure I know what's she making, at least. I told her I'm sorry if I'm crazy and bring my food scale, lol. She understands.

Time for bed. I can't hang past 10 anymore these days. I blame Josh. Night all!

Bloggin' from the air, bloggin' from the air.

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Hooray, a distraction from turbulence! Well, it's not turbulent at this moment per se, but given the current Denver weather report...maybe I should've saved my laptop juice for an hour or so from now. Oh well. I will be there in a couple of hours and get to see Yurani and Benson and take a shower and have some sleep.

In case you can't tell, I'm not the hugest fan of flying. I have flown a lot in my life - I mean, I went to flippin' Australia - and I'm still not accustomed to the bumpiness. If possible, I always choose a window seat so I can watch and make sure we're not, in fact, plummeting to the ground (FYI, we're always just turning or doing nothing and I'm insane). I've cried a couple of times in flight...specifically, when flying back from Colombia a year and a half ago. It was pretty bad. Hopefully this isn't a repeat occurrence. I blame Final Destination. The original. With Devon Sawa, aka Casper. None of this 3D BS.

Anyway, irrational fears aside, I lost 1.6 lbs. this week and ate two doughnuts and half a Panera bagel with cream cheese, don't judge me! Which, while not the two pounds I was hoping for considering my first week of recommitting usually yields a pretty huge loss for me, is still a victory - especially considering I was out of town this past weekend and was just getting back into running. Plus, it puts me right on track with my six-week goal, so I'll take it. My co-worker Jessica drove me to my meeting so I could weigh in, because Violet Wendy "VW" Beauregard (my Beetle) is out of commission at the moment. Bitch needs a new battery, like, yesterday. I need a few other things done to her too, so Josh is taking her to the VW dealership on Saturday. What a great boyfriend.

Speaking of great boyfriend (and this doesn't relate to health and fitness at all so scroll past if you don't curr, I won't be offended), Josh dropped me off at work this morning and there was this creepy 20-something dude loitering in the lobby of my office building. I saw Josh side-eye him, and Josh left and the dude is like, "Is there anywhere to get coffee in here?" I was like, "Er, second floor cafe, but I don't think they open for another 15 minutes." He said OK and followed me into the elevator. Looking back, he totally could have knifed me. I was on my guard though and it was only one floor, so I figured I could handle five seconds. He goes, "Is your boyfriend a security guard at the building?" WHAT. I said, "No, he works for Sam Ash - he has to wear all black." And then he got out and that was it.

So I went up to my fifth-floor office, put my purse down, got some coffee and my half bagel, had a little chit chat with one of my co-workers, put my lunch away, then went back to my desk. I pulled out my phone and saw that I had FOUR missed calls, a text, and a voicemail from Josh. I seriously thought he got in a horrible car accident or something. The text said, "Where are you?" and the voicemail said something along the lines of, "Hey sweetie. Er, didn't like the look of that dude who followed you into the elevator. It's not like you not to answer...please call me back."

So I called him immediately and apologized profusely for not picking up, and he was like, "Well...I'm downstairs, back at your office." WHAT A GOOD MAN, OMG. I'm so glad I have him looking out for me. He said he felt kind of silly but I assured him he did the right thing and I thanked him. Felt so bad for making him be late to work, but I am such a lucky lady and I just wanted to share. Made me feel very loved and safe. Crazy ass dude...he was definitely super skeezy.

So today aside, I just wanted to share that I've gotten either blue, green, or yellow stickers every day for the past nine days! That's a big deal for me; I've been redding it up lately. No bueno. Just a recap for the newbies or those who haven't memorized this crap have forgotten, these are what my stickers mean:

Blue (these are like ~Platinum):
- stayed within DPP (Daily PointsPlus)
- worked out
- didn't use any APP (Activity Points Plus)

Green (aka Gold)
- stayed within DPP and used only banked APP
- worked out and used fewer than 10 WAPP (Weekly Allowance PointsPlus)

Yellow (aka Silver)
- used fewer than 10 WAPP
- worked out and used 10 or more WAPP

Red (aka Bronze/poop)*
- used 10 or more WAPP

*I can't get a red sticker on days I work out.

So there you go - that's how I determined what kind of day I had. The first half of May is filled with a lot of poop days, but at least I tracked, I guess. I remember my calendar from February of last year...damn, that was an amazing calendar:

Four poop days AND A CONNECT FOUR WIN OF BLUE STICKERS FOR TUESDAYS AND GREEN ONES FOR WEDNESDAYS. We'll ignore that I was extra motivated on my days before and after weigh-in on that one, because it's amazing. Yeah...I need to channel some February!2011 energy like whoa. Maybe I can ask Josh to break up with me temporarily so I can get all post-breakup motivated again. Hm. It's tempting. If we weren't moving into our own place in six weeks, I'd probably consider it. :p

I made a delicious dinner the other night and I need to share it with you. It's straight out of pregnancy brain, which I don't have, obviously (though I did have a pregnancy dream the other night; I blame my friends who are popping out offspring left and right, aka all of them). I made a whole small spaghetti squash and mixed the "noodles" with 1/2 tbsp. of olive oil, garlic powder, black pepper, a little salt, and a little onion powder. Then I added - wait for it - four slices of crumbled turkey bacon. It sounded delicious, and it was. I think I was inspired by the much-more-caloric carbonara dish Josh got at Ray Romano's Macaroni Grill when we went for Beth's bachelorette dinner. Obviously his was more heavenly, but mine was great too, and the trade-off health wise was definitely worth the amendments. And it was only 4 PP! FOUR. For a huge bowl of "pasta"! You can't beat it. If you wanted to add some peas for a more authentic carbonara dish or a little Parmesan cheese, that's still only 5-6 PP for dinner. Add a Fiber One yogurt and a side of fruit and seriously, 6-7 PP for dinner is like magic for me. Maybe next time I'll make it with curry powder. I wish I'd taken a photo so this could be more than a wall of text explaining it, but alas. Next time.

I am a little over a quarter of the way through Bob Harper's book. I like it so far. Can't honestly see how someone super overweight and set in their ways can take all of his advice seriously (at least, all at the same time), but I respect the things he says. IDK if I'll be able to give up Stevia in my coffee, though, Bob. I gave up Splenda - isn't that enough for you? :[ He would shake his head at me, force me to do push-ups, and point and laugh. I don't blame him...I'd do it too. Aw, he wouldn't really. He's way too nice. I...stand by the claim that I'd do it, though. /Slytherin

Yurani and I are going running (5K distance - we'll see if my lungs can take the unfamiliar altitude) in the morning, then at least once more while I'm here - hopefully 4 miles Saturday or Sunday. Friday I want to do some more core work (and triceps too, maybe), and then I'm at her command for hiking. Good thing I remembered to bring my hefty new stash of hot-pink KT tape.

Hoping to make a grocery run tomorrow and do lots of activity. Neither of us are particularly rolling in unlimited spending money, so I think that will help get our asses outside. Not that she needs any motivation - in fact, she has enough nature love for the both of us and anyone reading this entry, and she will push my ass on these hikes. I am a self-proclaimed indoor girl, though, as we all know - to the point where if I fell off a cliff while hiking, you guys should not be surprised, haha. Pretty mountains!? No, give me Netflix and a treadmill and I'm good. I can't help it...I love my air conditioning. :[ I'm such a lazy ass sometimes. Hoping this cray summer will snap me out of my BUT IT'S TOO EARLY AND HOT AND HUMID AND I NEED TO CATCH UP ON SEASON 4 OF HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER WHINE COMPLAIN. Though I just realized I forgot bug spray. Damn it. I'll have to remember to pick some up.

This is getting tangenty (forgive me and my Starbucks, for I knew not what I was doing), so I think I'll end it and go watch me some Netflix! Hope to blog a couple times from Denver. We shall see.

Weekend #1

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I know my title makes no sense to the normal brain, but for me this was the first weekend I have actually TRIED to control myself in terms of food and exercise in a very long time. Like, genuinely tried. Not "Oh, I was good the first half of Friday, LOL REST OF WEEKEND FAIL." And it was extra difficult, because I was out of town with much more limited resources than I have when I'm home.

But I am super stoked to report that I planned, tracked, and even exercised while I was in Jacksonville. Whaaaaaaaat!? Craziness, I know. But I'm determined to meet my six-week goal, and if I have to be a pain in the ass to do it, well...sorry, world. I'll break down my weekend as best I can...



I did really well - used the 3 APP I'd earned on my Thursday run as well as 4 WAPP, but a Saturday morning with 45 WAPP still in my bank is a big victory for me at this point. I made some great decisions on the way up to Jax. Josh and I stopped at Publix to pick up some flowers for his mom, and I grabbed a Chobani Greek yogurt, some crab (well, krab, hah) sticks, and a banana to have for dinner. Mrs. Haupt had also stocked up on a nice bowl of fruit, which was so great. I nursed that the entire weekend, as well as a few La Croix sparkling fruit waters instead of extra wine.

Speaking of, I also only had one glass of white wine Friday night. Normally when I go up to Jax, I'll have two or three minimum the first night, because the Haupts do love their wine (well, Josh and his mom do, at least). Hooray Friday!


I came prepared for breakfast. I had packed a packet of lower-sugar oatmeal, so I had that with some coffee (I even brought Stevia packets...what has come over me?), almonds (which I also brought, which was unnecessary since they had the same kind at the house), and a banana. For lunch, we actually ended up going to Bahama Breeze and not Mimi's as originally planned. Buttt I shared a crab stack appetizer (3 PP for 1/2!) and got a salad with romaine, grilled chicken, fruit, avocado (and they didn't skimp, either, yay), and vinaigrette on the side, which I counted as 12 PP. I did have one mini cupcake from Sweet. How could I not? The only other location aside from the one next to my house is in that shopping center. Luckily, the quality was up to par with Orlando's location. ;p

Josh and I were supposed to get up Sunday and run, but I know us and I knew we wouldn't. It was so hot this weekend, and I knew I'd want to sleep in. Plus, my hair needed a serious wash ASAP, so I asked Mrs. Haupt if I could use her treadmill and she said sure, and showed me all the functions and everything. So I got my 2.5-mile/30-minute run in, and did 150 crunches afterward too. My upper abs hurt a lot today (and yesterday, for that matter), but it's the good kind of hurt. :p

For dinner, the guys cooked a really yummy shrimp dish, with gnocchi and a creamy delicious sauce. I had a bite or two, but Josh was amazing and made sure I had 3 oz. of seasoned grilled shrimp, plain, for me. He also made scallops but made mine without the sauce he'd concocted. Best boyfriend ever - I'm very grateful he is so supportive. Not sure what I'd do without him! I also made that maple-balsamic Brussels sprouts dish, and everyone loved it, which was great to hear! I had a couple glasses of wine and a tiny slice of key-lime pie as well, so not the BEST day, but I was very mindful and it could've been much worse. Plus, I exercised, so I didn't feel too bad. I definitely enjoyed every bite/sip.


Sunday was a little bit worse than it should've been, considering, but I still only went over by 6 PP for the entire day - and that was after eating out twice. We went to Mellow Mushroom for lunch, and I got a huge salad that only came out to 8 PP for the whole thing. For dinner I had Taco Bell - 8 PP again, for two Fresco chicken soft tacos, which are my go-to food there. I snacked a little more than I should've, but I'll take it.


So right now I have 18 WAPP left. After my strength training tonight and run tomorrow, I should have 25 WAPP left. My goal for Wednesday is to leave the rest of them untouched. I am really hoping for a 2-lb. loss this week, but we'll see whether the scale agrees. Regardless, I'm proud of how I handled this weekend, and very grateful for the willpower I somehow dug up from the depths of my crazy.

As mentioned, I have started incorporating strength exercises back into my routine. It's only been one day, so I don't deserve any credit yet, but I think I am going to focus on core and arms during my non-running gym days (likely Mondays once my marathon training starts and I'm doing long runs on Saturdays instead of Sundays, like it is now). I find that my endurance increases so much when my core is strong, so I want to make sure I get those exercises in. I will need them sooner rather than later. I can't believe training starts in less than three weeks. Lord. I better start mentally preparing myself now.

My shin started acting up a little bit after the treadmill run in Jax. Luckily the pain subsided fairly quickly and wasn't too severe to begin with, but my KT tape came in Saturday (yay), so I bandaged my shin up again last night. I'll probably wear the tape for a few days and bring a couple pieces with me to Denver just in case. I know Yurani will be kicking my ass with running and hiking, which I desperately need, so I have to come prepared. I leave Wednesday night. I told her she needs to whip my ass into shape so I come back to Florida under 130 lbs., and she said, "Let's do it." She is super active and does WW as well, so I'm grateful for this trip in even more ways than being able to see her and Benson (her baby). ♥ Can't wait. Maybe I can even get through the plane ride without knocking back two vodka Coke Zeroes this time. We shall see.

I'll end this entry with some great news about my brother. He called me late Saturday evening, but I didn't pick up because I was asleep. Sunday morning at 9:30 a.m., he calls me again just as I'm opening my eyes. Now, my brother is not a morning person. You think I'M not a morning person? I pale in comparison to this kid. He will sleep until 2 p.m. without batting an eyelash. But no, he calls me at 9:30 (which is 8:30 his time, mind you, in New Orleans).

Me: "WTF are you doing awake?"
Bobby: "I just got back from my 2-mile walk."
Me: "...WTF are you doing awake."
Bobby: "IDK, I feel motivated."

It was really cool to hear that. Made me smile a TON that my brother was not only getting up early after what I'm sure was a busy night at work (he's a chef), but that he was doing it to EXERCISE. To many of us, a walk isn't a really big deal, but it is a HUGE deal for my family and for my brother in particular, and I know he is really pushing the walls of his comfort zone to do something different with his life. He told me he got the scale I sent and weighed himself, and that is goal is to get down 78 lbs. I told him that's great, but maybe he could make a smaller goal at first (28 lbs.), then go from there.

He also told me he only had one meal Saturday, and I was like NO, BAD, EAT THREE MEALS, haha. I explained about metabolism, and how his body needs three square breakfast is the most important meal of the day, etc. He was talking about going to breakfast with my mom, so I texted him a list of "BFF" menu words (egg white omelet with veggies, fresh fruit, plain oatmeal, turkey bacon, water, etc.) and a list of "enemy" words (cheesy, hash, country-fried, hollandaise, loaded, etc.). They actually ended up going to Applebee's and he got a Weight Watchers dish and water. Progress! He is off today so I'll probably give him a call and see how's he doing, but I don't want to nag - he has to make the effort.

I'm still not holding my breath though. Not because I don't believe in him (I think it is pretty clear that I do), but because a.) I don't want to jinx it (main reason), and b.) I know it takes time to really adapt to a new lifestyle and know that you have the power to make such a huge change. But I'm extremely proud of him, and I will say I have never heard him talk like this before. He is smart and capable, and I hope this is a sign that he truly realizes that he has all the power in the world to be whatever he wants to be, physically and mentally. In the meantime, I will work on not being the nagging older sister, and instead be a reference tool for him. Hope I can do that well.

My LJ buddy Becca (beccakicksbutt) and I are going to be text buddies for some added accountability! I sent her my workout schedule, so we are going to nag each other every day to make sure we're staying on track. Any extra motivation/push will only help.

This post has gotten long and cray cray enough. Hope you all had as fulfilling a weekend as I did!

Shins, stories, and summertime

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So I owe you guys an update because I have things to say.

First off, I have a 12-week plan to get to goal, as well as a six-week plan to get back down to 125 lbs. Which means I need to lose an average of about 1.5 lbs./week in the next six weeks to do it. This is going to be hard, but I am going to take it one day at a time and do what I can to get there. I have been doing extremely well the last few days, and I want to keep it that way. Knock on wood.

So, I haven't mentioned it yet, but I went ahead and signed up for the 2013 Walt Disney World Marathon! D: / :D I am super nervous. At this point, much more nervous than excited (hence the scurred face before the happy one), because I feel like physically I haven't really earned the right to the excitement yet and that being like LOL I'M RUNNING A MARATHON, GUISE would be jumping the gun a bit. Which I'd barely have the energy to do right now with just getting over these shinanigans (see what I did there?), but more on that in a bit. But yeah...I mean, anyone can pay for's the training that is going to test me. So I'm trying to be humble and if I do great, great! If I struggle a least I didn't say I wouldn't. :p

The marathon is having its 20th year, so this will be a good year to do it! Here's the race course - just released yesterday - with a guided tour by Mickey Mouse himself:

I also signed up for the Galloway Marathon Training Program I told you guys about a while ago. My glass-half-empty side is saying "OK sooo three more Saturday mornings you get to sleep in until January?" But my glass-half-full side (yes Kitzzy, I have one, even though it's buried!) says, "Hey, maybe you'll be a morning person after all!" I mean, my plan at the moment is to use the early-Saturday runs to get my ass in bed at a reasonable hour on Fridays and then set the pace for the rest of the weekend, so that's good. It'll be nice to come home after the run, eat, shower, go back to bed (don't judge me), then wake up and be like WELL DAMN, I'M GOOD ON EXERCISE FOR A COUPLE DAYS. I will never say I love exercise, guys. Mark my words. I love feeling energized and being thin and healthy, but I love the indoors too much. I actually do hope that changes one day. We'll see.

Anyway, re: marathon training...I am excited about this journey, but very, VERY intimidated. You will all probably be seeing many expletive-laden entries come June...but hopefully when the heat/humidity lets up a little and my body gets used to running longer distances, I won't whine as often or as...loudly. Hah.

Now for the shinjury (I slay me sometimes) update...I am happy to report things seem to be all good! If I sprint, I still feel a little pain...but the slow runs actually seem to be helping. I did a 2-mile treadmiller on Tuesday and the same distance outdoors last night with my co-workers, and while my endurance has suffered over my two-week hiatus, my shin held its own. I should have some KT Tape coming in the mail any day (hot pink, of course)...I have a feeling it will not be my last order. Thanks again for introducing us, Kitzzy!

I bought Bob Harper's new book, The Skinny Rules, for my Kindle today.

I read a few chapters on lunch today. I love Bob - he has a way of communicating that is very real, down to earth, and honest. He is firm and straightforward but appealing - he makes you want to make him proud, lol. His rules are pretty common sense, but the kind of things I usually whistle and turn my head about - i.e. drink a crap ton of water, stop with the artificial sweeteners, eat protein at every meal, stop being a fast-food junkie. I hope to finish it this week. I'll keep you guys posted.

No updates on my brother yet. I sent him a scale and a food plan. I think he may be going shopping this weekend, but I am not going to meddle. He knows where I am if he needs to reach me.

One more quick thing - going to Jax this weekend for Josh's mom's birthday. We are stopping at Publix tonight before we get there, so I have what I want to get for dinner planned out, plus some PP budgeted for a glass of wine. Tomorrow I believe we're going to go to this place called Mimi's Café for lunch. Luckily it's a chain and I already have my meal planned out (thank the lord they have more healthy options than just salad). At night, Josh and Jeremy are going to cook dinner. Not sure what yet, but I'm going to make that WW maple-balsamic Brussels sprouts dish that Josh and I love, so I know I'll at least have that to fill up on. Sunday we might go to First Watch for breakfast, and I have an order there I always get that fills me up and is easily countable. Oh, and Josh and I are going on a 2.5-mile jog in the morning beforehand. I hope everything goes as smoothly as it sounds, lol. At the very VERY least, I want to hold myself accountable.

Hope you guys all have a great weekend!


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Jen is losing it.

About Me

29-year-old Nutella activist, full-time grammar enforcer, and part-time runner. I live for cupcakes, Walt Disney World, terrible puns, the '90s, Harry Potter, spelling bees, pumpkin anything, fluffy animals, beer, and B horror films. I write.

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